its been a long winding way so now where do i start.. everything seems to fall apart. funny looking down on my last post i was talking bout my past relationship and how i wanted to make everything alright so bad but now i barely have anything to stand for. i still feel guilty though for what ive done but i thought it was the best for us and yes im sure for me it was and it is still the best for us. a long relationship brings nothing but sins, accusations and short-term gratification which does not offer delight in the after life, there you have my reason. i am may be one million years away from being a religious individual but i am here trying and ready to change. i know i know its not easy to live on my own and the future is always full with suprises and unexpected temptation in any forms and falling in love again is honestly not an exception. i thought you would understand i did this for us i thought you seen right through me but unfortunately you didnt. all i did was trying to give us time a long break until both of us are ready but no you used that time to find somebody else just what exactly happened to the things you said? yes i remember telling you to move on with your life but i didnt expect you to move that quick i feel truly insulted and what even more the person that you are with now is someone who used to be a good friend of mine. im not grieving over you i just cant find a way to accept this kind of insult.
its a lie to say that this does not take a toll on me you know to everyday carry the feelings of being betrayed and being lied to. its alright atleast reality has slapped me in the face and i am now aware that the unrealistic romance from novels and movies cannot be applied to everyday life, they are scripted and we arent. thing like this brings nothing but despair. whatever it is i wish you luck in everything you do, nothing in this world is built to last.
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